I hear the echo of laughter
Full of colors and life
The shrieks of pleasant surprises
Bathed in the bright hues
That must be joy round the corner
My benumbed mind senses
I reach out and call
A hollow moan reckons
I grope in the emptiness around
And whisper out a wish
The fading blues comfort me
I beckon the long lost dream
It flows through trickling tears
That fill my cracked smile
I recall the nostalgia of love
It still takes my breath away
I warm to the feel of touch
It makes me trepidate in hope
Even the grip of your thoughts
Makes me writhe in helplessness
I crush the mounting passion
Wanting to be strong again
I shut out the joys
I squeeze out the colors
I wipe out the traces of every smile
I feel strong again with my loneliness
And my very blue company of tears
Until the shadows of our memories
Crack my secure world again
I dream, I hope, I desire
For a touch of your lips
A caress of your smile
A haven of your strong arms
I want to live and die in you just one more time
Till all that is dead in me comes alive
…And till I kill any trace of life ever again

-Monica