A new pain

I experienced pain yet again, one more time I let myself be claimed by it, fast....engulfing...choking.....benumbing. But this time it was the physical manifestation of it. A strange feeling in the deep of my heart, something tugging, something pulling, something sucking all of me in it, like an inbuilt vaccum. It left me helpless, listless, and I truly hope without hope too....but who knows really.

And then it was darkness all around, I shut the world around me, buried my head into the chaos and then heard the clock tick time by.

This time my tears left me bereft.

-Monica