nothingness

and then one day i wake up from a sleepless night to knowit is a part of me now
an overnight change that has left me unchanged
the pain doesn't speak the tears don't sting
it all just flows within ceaselessly
and a smile camouflages it all!

no yearning no memory no moment to call my own
the past is lost and the future an unwanted promise i have learnt not to trust
so the past is no more a problem and the future no more a concern
it is the present thats a trouble a challenge i cannot face
and time my undaunting enemy whom i cannot kill

i want to fight time
i write the lyrics of my favorite song and try to sing it loud
my voice is lost i remember i stiffled it last night

so i wait for the day to change to noon and the noon to melt into the evening
an evening with no colors gives in to another dark night
this feels home and i comfort myself with the selplessness
and then one day i wake up from a sleepless night to know
it is a part of me now